Passion is defined as a strong feeling of enthusiasm or excitement for something or about doing something. Some may have a passion for sports, teaching, or the arts. Recently, I was asked what my passion was and I froze for a second, then I responded with “well…I like to write” and it is true. I do enjoy journaling, but I thought more about the question and I began to be overwhelmed with emotion because my first true passion was dance. I enjoyed ballet throughout my childhood years, but I began taking it seriously when I was a teen. Unfortunately, during my senior year my cardiologist decided it would be best for me to have a defibrillator implanted. Needless to say, I was not enthused.
After the procedure I continued to dance, but something began to change. I was losing my passion. I did not work as hard as I had before and how could I? The fact that I had visible scars on my body due to a health condition that I knew very little about made me upset. I was 17 years old at the time and now, 11 years later, I realized I kept that same anger and with that anger I lost all of my passion.
Even though I have gone through a number of procedures, scary episodes with my health, and hospital visits, I am happy to say I am beginning to gain my passion back. I may not be able to dance any longer, but I can use my words to make someone feel like they just witnessed a black prima ballerina float so eloquently across a stage. Regardless of what issues you are in the midst of facing, have faced in the past, or will have to face in the future, health related or not, do not let it consume you. Remain passionate and if you are not passionate about something, it is never too late to explore.
I have recently learned even though I am a 28 year old black woman that has a heart condition that is more common in older white men, I cannot let it define me. Two years ago I was a guest speaker at an event explaining my heart condition and how I had undergone a painful 30 shocks from my device several months prior and to be honest, I was still in pain emotionally at the time. Within the last two years, I have undergone a few more shocks and another procedure, but I am still here and I believe that I am here because I have to discover my new passion.
Whatever your passion is, do not let it go to waste because you feel handicapped, discouraged, or less than because ultimately, I believe, your passion will lead you to God’s designed purpose for your life.